Midterms are creeping up, and everyone around me is drowning. Study guides, frantic group chats, caffeine-fueled nights—I see it all happening, but I feel nothing. It’s like I’m watching a storm through a glass window while sitting comfortably inside. I know I should be stressed, should be cramming, should be feeling something—but I don’t. And that’s what worries me.
I’ve been going to all my lectures, taking notes, following along like I always do. Logically, I understand that midterms affect my grades, my GPA, my future. But I just don’t care. It’s not burnout. I’m not overwhelmed. In fact, nothing bad is happening in my life at all. I should feel fine. But instead, I feel nothing.
It’s weird because I’ve always been ambitious, always cared about excelling, always wanted to be the best at what I do. But right now? That drive is just…gone. I know that if I keep this up, it could affect my grades. The rational part of me acknowledges the consequences, but the emotional part refuses to react.
So what’s going on with me? Is this just a phase? A mental reset? A silent protest against the never-ending grind? Or am I just coasting, waiting for something—anything—to wake me up again?
I don’t have the answers. But I do know that midterms are happening whether I care or not. And for now, I guess I’ll just keep showing up, hoping that one day, the urgency will come back.
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